Beautiful Life!

It hits me now that I am officially 4th year!

 Mcm tak percaya! I know I am supposed to feel like I know lots…but I don’t. Aku rasa risau jadi doktor. Wht if I kill my patient with my ignorance?

 

I’ve been lucky and it’s time for me to give my thanks to all those who have helped me getting through the hell of medicine. Know that all your combined contributions are greatly appreciated. I am so lucky because by the blessing of Allah I am surrounded with the kindest, most helpful, most loving individuals in my life. I could not ask for more. I am, for every second of my life, most thankful.

1)My family!

-My mom tiap2 hari solat hajat untuk aku. Dier dah bernazar nakpuasa and buat kenduri pulut kuning kalau aku pass. Tiap2 kali exam pun she does the same thing for me. Wlaupun everytime ada disagreement dgn my mom I feel like we are two aliens speaking different languages, but at times like these, I know why paradise lies beneath her feet. Paradise deserves nothing less but to lie beneath her feet.  

-My siblings too dikerah buat solat hajat untuk aku by my mom. So, I guess I should thank you guys too, huh? :p

 

2) Seniors

-Especially seniors yg selalu hang out kt library. Kak Izza, Kak Wardiah, Kak Dash, Kak Hani. Thank you for all the tips that were given. Thank you for showing me the right direction. Thank you for all the encouragement during my sleepy time in AIC, during my frustrated moments in the library. Thank you for hearing all my whining and my grunts. And thank you for all the ’staying-awake-kit’ comprising of junk food and sesi main teka teki. Hahahha. Love your antics, Kak Izza.

- And Kak Mel, thanks heaps for the two books that you lent me. Thanks for all your words of encouragement. You told me that, “Sabar, it’s all worth it.” And I agree now that it indeed is. Kadang2 bukannya saya tak nak sabar…it just that I like complaining about it… I like voicing out my frustration because it makes me feel a lot better. But whenever you told me “it’s all worth it, in the end,” it never fail to make me feel better and it makes me stop complaining because I keep thinking, I should be like Kak Mel. Buat apa nak kompelin2..it does not solve anything, kan? But after a few days, I will be back to my whining…and I keep thinking, maybe I could never be as good as Kak Mel.

 

3) Dayah, my kind and lovely roommate (saja nak kecek, hahahha)

-Thank you sebab bersabar dgn pertempuran antara aku dgn Kelly dan Jane. Aku tahu Jane gave you a hard time just because you are my friend. But you took that all in stride. Bravo!

-Thank you sebab sanggup jadi roommate aku kt Bara and pindah fr the hell of Convocation A. You are a great roommate. When I think back on all my ‘Asrama days’, I have always been lucky with my choice of roommates. Drpd Langkawi hingga KMB and hingga ke Aussie…all my roommates were very comfortable to live with. But so far, dayah is the best…because she also cooks very good food. Aku sampai segan nak ambil setiap kali dier offer. Dier kasi aku makan sedap2…rendang, bubur kacang hitam, masak lodeh, cake. Aku plak jamu dier bihun goreng dgn nasi goreng jer. And jgn lupa makanan kucing! hahahhah.

- Thank you for showing me the right direction! Literally! Bersusah payah kau ajar aku mcm mana nak tengok map untuk pi klinik kt broadmeadow tu. Aku yg bengap ni telah menanyakan soalan2 yg paling bodoh:

• “Dayah, mcm mana aku naktau bahagian kiri kt map ni sama dgn kiri aku ke tak?”.
• “Dayah, kat mana aku nak stop? Mcam mana aku nak tau nak tekan loceng bila?” 

Cikgu Geografi aku mesti frust kalau dier tau! Looking back, aku pun amazed caner aku leh dpt A geografi PMR.

- Thank you sebab mendengar semua keluh kesah aku pasal medicine. Aku tau mesti kau tak larat nak dengar aku asyik menceceh:

• dayah, aku tak habih lagi study untuk minggu ni! Mcm mana nak pi tutorial ni, aku tak tau apa.
• Dayah, soalan exam susah gila! Susah nak mampus! Susah mcm dgn apa! Susah siot! Aku tak pernah buat exam susah mcm ni! (Basically, setiap kali aku kompelin kat dayah, mmg tak sah kalau tak ada perkatan ’susah’)
• Dayah, I am so freaking out! I am so scared. I am so worried.

- Thank you for dealing with my pre-exam anxieties. You taught me the basic way of looking at anatomy! I was like, “dayah, mcm mana aku naktau ni humerus kiri atau humerus kanan just by looking at the picture. I am so freaking out. Exam lagi berapa jam, aku tak tau pun caner nak determine which humerus is this!”

Bila aku pk balik…what a simple question! But yes…like I have said before, my cordination sucks real bad! Sometimes I am very ‘lampi’. Benda yg paling senang dan obvious lah benda yang paling aku lemah. Aku pun tak paham awat aku mcm ni.

- Thank you for dealing with the office and with our social engagements. Dayah would make a very good ‘public relation officer’. She took charge of a lot of stuff just because I was busy studying. I felt guilty sometimes. I mean, kalau tak dak dayah, mesti aku kena handle benda tu sendiri juga. But just because dayah was there, I felt like I was taking advantage of her. But don’t worry, next year I will make it up to you, iA. Next year hopefully would be much easier (I hope).

She also reminded me and sometimes printed out for me all the forms that need to be filled out when we were leaving Bara. She dealt with the booking of storage. Seriously…when I was busy studying, aku memang tak ingat org. I am so lucky to have such a superwoman for a roommate.

 

Maybe ada hikmah kita bergaduh dgn Kelly and Jane. Bayangkan kalau kita stay kt rumah tu….mana larat aku nak study asyik duk dengar Kelly ngan bf dia. How annoying! And sebab kita bergaduh ngan Kelly lah maka ko jadi roommate aku. It turned out to be such a good thing! I have no regrets on that account.

 

4)Balqis, my study mate!

-Other than Nizam, Balqis is the only Malaysian doing Academic semester of 3rd year with me. So naturally, I spent a lot of my time with her, racking our brains together. Takkan nak study ngan Nizam plak…kang ada org marah. hahahhaha.

-Balqis ni mmg bijaksana. Aku tabik spring! Sometimes I wonder, apsal semua benda aku tanya semua benda dia boleh jawab. I mean, how does she study??? Kenapa my memory not as good as hers?

-Thank you, Balqis for all the exam tips. Thank you for all the junk food you supplied for us to stay awake in AIC. Thank you for being a great study mate. I learned a lot from you. Daripada Gosford, sampailah hujung tahun, we’ve been studying together and again I am soo lucky! Balqis ni mcm Hermione dlm cerita Harry Potter. And I am like Ron…clueless, nervous, clumsy. But Ron is lucky sebab ada Hermione…and of course Ron is luckier than Harry Potter in terms of having a good family who cares about his well-being. When I think carefully….I am just like Ron, except that I am female, of course, and a Muslim. But other than that…Ron = Afiza (that’s a bit of math that I think should be made into a mathematical law.)

 

5) Tutemates and others

-My tutemate terutamanya James….oh he’s so brilliant. Slalu contribute dlm tutorial…semua benda pun dia tau. Kami semua main angguk ja semua benda dia cakap. Iyakan jerlah because most of the time he is right.

-Daniel Chen, the president of MedSoc… the guy I went to clinic with. Always pick me up to go with him… and got lost finding the clinic. Sorrylah, cannot help with the map. I only made things worse.

-Juniors2 yg slalu hang out kt library…again, thank you for the food. Thank you for providing me with some diversion when I was bored. You all fresh first years burn with ambition…reminded me of how I was when I was in first year. Now I am just burnt out! Hahahha. But don’t be like me. Be like Kak Balqis!  

-Suhaila, Wani, Marlina… walaupun away for their regional rotation…tapi thanks a lot for the tips given! My life was such a roller coaster ride….I wish you guys were able to join me but alas, you miss out on the fun! hahhahha. I am sooo poyo!

 

And all my other friends….just because your names are not mentioned does not mean I don’t think of you every now and then. Newcastle is only the best place to study just because there are people like you guys! Know that I think of every single person with great fondness and affection.

 

All right, now I am going to enjoy the rest of my holiday with good novels for company! Next year can occupy my worried mind later. MUCH later.

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